Being naked in front of you scares me

//Being naked in front of you scares me

Being naked in front of you scares me

The night spent in this shuttered hotel changed my life.

The Goldfield Hotel in Goldfield, Nevada. 2007

Despite working in public relations, I’ve preferred to retreat whenever possible and place others in the spotlight. But that luxury of invisibility has passed.  Fate propels me forward, urging me to authentically share my experiences, my thoughts and the strange happenings that now seem to account for a new type of personal normalcy.

I confess: I’m not average.

For years, I strove to be the good “normal” girl, one who followed 20th century American norms and my church’s teachings. Never would I’ve agitated the collective pot by letting myself even believe ghosts existed. My days hiding behind this comforting façade are gone.

You see, I’ve seen, felt, smelled and heard ghosts.

After one remarkable night in the haunted Goldfield Hotel (GFH) in central Nevada, I realized my “rampant imagination” never had conjured the strange instances that had taken place in my life.

I’m also a Christian, though I no longer attend church.

While I was in my early twenties, my evangelical pastor preached that psychics and those who delve into the paranormal are evil and racing to Hell. I once believed this. But then, I also heard only a select group (even among Christians) could enter heaven—and I’d embraced that notion, too. My small-box beliefs led me to judge and elevate myself above others. Hardly a behavior Jesus would encourage.

It’s all TV’s fault. (Not really!)

Through my job, the anchorman for Reno, Nevada’s CBS affiliate invited me to join its investigative team as an impartial observer on an overnight ghost-hunting expedition. That night shattered my beliefs and expanded my reality.

But it also pushed me toward an incredible spiritual renaissance, one that renewed my commitment to God and rerouted me onto a strange, unconventional journey.

Witness my odyssey.

One of discovery. Of releasing old, mistaken beliefs and opening up to new, vast possibilities.

  • Of the encouragement springing forth that an affirming afterlife exists
  • We are here to help answer others’ prayers, and
  • We can live without fear

You may judge me as harshly as I once would’ve done.

You may say I’m going to Hell. That I’m not someone you’d want to hang around with. You may believe I’m weak-minded or stupid to espouse concepts science hasn’t proven.  And, you know what? You have a right to, because your thoughts result from the life you’ve led.

I must focus on helping others.

Without telling my truth, I can’t assist those of you who are stumbling through what I survived. And, this intent reigns supreme over my feelings and hurt ego.

So if you are intrigued, follow my nakedness as I bare my travails, successes and personal truths of the life I now live.

By | 2011-12-22T04:40:43+00:00 December 22nd, 2011|Uncategorized|39 Comments

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  1. rc December 21, 2011 at 7:08 am - Reply

    Glad to visit this blog, keep it going.

    • Kathleen December 22, 2011 at 5:09 am - Reply

      Thank you. It will be officially launched on Jan. 4th and I will be posting on each Wednesday. I appreciate your interest.

  2. Jewell Martensen December 23, 2011 at 8:36 pm - Reply

    Appreciate it for helping out, superb info .

    • Kathleen January 2, 2012 at 7:20 pm - Reply

      Thank you very much for the feeback. I’m officially launching this blog on Wednesday. There will be a new posting on Jan. 11.

  3. Tona Puorto December 23, 2011 at 10:06 pm - Reply

    You are a very capable person!

    • Kathleen January 2, 2012 at 7:18 pm - Reply

      Thank you. Now that I’m back in town, I can do this on a weekly basis. I appreciate your support. 🙂

  4. Vickie Gay January 3, 2012 at 9:14 pm - Reply

    Good luck in all you do. I look forward to your blog post

    • Kathleen January 3, 2012 at 10:10 pm - Reply

      Thank you, Vickie. I’m hoping you’ll add comments as I go along as I respect your vast knowledge on these topics.

  5. nr1220 January 4, 2012 at 2:09 am - Reply

    I’m excited to read your future blogs!

    • Kathleen January 4, 2012 at 4:07 pm - Reply

      Thanks so much, Nichole.

  6. Sharon Leong January 4, 2012 at 5:00 am - Reply

    Love your blog, Kathleen, look forward to reading more in the weeks to come! Best wishes for a happy, healthy, and successful New Year filled with wonderment, love, and joy!

    • Kathleen January 4, 2012 at 4:06 pm - Reply

      Thanks, Sharon. I hope you will mention some of your experiences here in the future.

  7. Mellisa Buchtel January 8, 2012 at 8:40 am - Reply

    You are my aspiration , I own few web logs and very sporadically run out from to brand.

    • Kathleen January 9, 2012 at 5:19 pm - Reply

      Thank you!

  8. Sharyl Verrill January 8, 2012 at 2:31 pm - Reply

    I see something genuinely interesting about your blog so I bookmarked .

    • Kathleen January 9, 2012 at 5:18 pm - Reply

      Thank you! A new one will be up Wednesday.

  9. pjoriley January 12, 2012 at 5:24 am - Reply

    Kathy, I am fascinated with your journey because I suspect we are tracking 180-degrees apart. I appreciate that you are sharing such intimate experiences and will follow your story with an open mind. A toast to future publishing opportunities ~

    • Kathleen January 13, 2012 at 12:23 am - Reply

      I really appreciate your open-mindedness. Our journeys are shaped by our individual experiences. We all have different purposes in life and I respect yours as well. Take care.

  10. CK January 12, 2012 at 5:20 pm - Reply

    Fascinating and inspiring. Written with a genuine voice and felt compassion. Thank you!

  11. nr1220 January 12, 2012 at 5:30 pm - Reply

    I’m wondering if you had so much fear of the dark…how did you get the courage to stay overnight in a place like Goldfield? Was it that you just told yourself…nawww nothing will be there. Or was it just your curiosity tugging at your sleeve??

    • Kathleen January 13, 2012 at 12:31 am - Reply

      I used to get angry at myself for being sooo uncomfortable in the dark. I felt I was being irrational at feeling like there was always something there I couldn’t see (which now, I’m thinking, “Okay, there probably was something there.”) I don’t think it was courage that got me to go to Goldfield. It was professional pride; I went for my job to help promote our ghost series. And, honestly, I never believed anything would happen anyhow. Despite saying all this–yes, I was scared of the possibility that I might’ve been wrong about the existence of the paranormal, and then, alternately, I’d be mad at myself for being scared at such “outrageous nonsense.”

  12. Rae Harper January 12, 2012 at 5:36 pm - Reply

    Kathy,

    Great job on your launch! I love this post. It really sets the stage and leaves us intrigued for what is next.

    Thank you for creating this and allowing us to follow you in your nakedness.

  13. Tony Gonzalez January 13, 2012 at 6:44 am - Reply

    I’ve always had a curiosity about how the paranormal dovetails with my Christianity. Kathleen, I applaud your courage in asking uncomfortable questions.

  14. KMJ January 13, 2012 at 6:53 am - Reply

    I think your blog is first rate and I know your book will be a killer! Keep up the great work!

    Remember: BooooooDuuuude!!

    • Kathleen January 13, 2012 at 11:59 pm - Reply

      Thank you, Duuuuude! 🙂

  15. Geraldine January 16, 2012 at 9:36 pm - Reply

    The blog is cool

  16. Rita Ayala January 19, 2012 at 1:11 am - Reply

    Thanks cousin, keep them coming. Love ya

    • Kathleen January 19, 2012 at 6:56 am - Reply

      I appreciate it. Love ya!

  17. R. Huber January 23, 2012 at 5:19 pm - Reply

    Thank you for being you..a pleasure visiting your sight and blog. You’re on fire!

    • Kathleen January 23, 2012 at 5:29 pm - Reply

      Thank you! Hope you visit each Wednesday.

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    • Kathleen February 20, 2012 at 3:51 pm - Reply

      Thank you very much for your kind words. Good luck in your endeavors.

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  23. Who is heaven bound? December 5, 2012 at 5:56 am - Reply

    […] in 2007, I fought my own pulpit demons after spending the night at the Goldfield Hotel (GFH). Everything my pastor had told me years earlier about the paranormal and psychic abilities […]

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